Hi Beautiful People.
I feel tired and overwhelmed and restless.
I feel tired of being too tired to be who I wanted to be — who I want to be.
Having plans sometimes is like setting oneself up to fail.
I mean tell me:
What do I do when I make plans and things don’t fall into place because the obstacles were much?
Well, I reverted back to prayers.
Of course, I have always prayed. But there’s praying and there’s praying.
There’s praying in your head and there’s my-heart-is-bleeding-I-can’t-take-this-anymore praying.
Praying with a bleeding heart, is like trying to burst a boil at maturity. It’s painful to touch, much less squeeze and it throbs painfully without being touched.
To leave it on it’s own is not an option, because the pain increases to the point of insomnia.
So you have to clench your teeth against the pain and burst the boil. Once you do, you feel better and relieved.
Sometimes until the pain of where we are stuck in, is greater than the pain of breaking free, we might not pursue true liberty –Paraphrased from the novel “The Last Ten Percent” by Michelle McKinney Hammond
Breaking free can be a Herculean task, but it’s not impossible.
Speaking of Herculean tasks, I recall — not that I have been able to forget — the movie “Hercules” whose lead actor is Dwayne Johnson (I think I might watch it again).
I don’t know if I have written this before, but I believe Dwayne found his true calling in acting. He may have wanted to be a sports man, but his size and skills makes him a better actor as warrior in period/medieval movies.
Back to Hercules.
There are lots of lessons to glean from the movie, but the one that relates most to this particular “muse-ticle” on the issue of pain, is best described by my latest finding on this popular quote:
What doesn’t kill you……
Had. Better. Run!!!!
If you are going through pain I recommend Hercules the movie, featuring Dwayne Johnson — I had to add that, because I don’t know if there are other movie versions.
Hercules had lost enough to kill a man, but when he found the truth about his painful past under …less than congenial circumstances, the truth set him free. And in setting himself free others also gained their freedom right along with him.
No wonder, Jesus Christ said and I quote:
Ye shall know the truth and the truth will make you free.
End quote.
A pastor recently said the word make in that scripture is deliberate and has it’s meaning to the text, but we will talk about that in other muse-letters.
Hercules was legendary for his brute strength and his long strings of victory, but he was running away from a memory.
Which brings me to another point:
To be free from a pain you must gather the courage exclusive for it, because you can’t borrow courage from another experience or victory. You need to begin courage or encourage yourself all over again. Therefore, courage is exclusive.
That’s why we see that many of us are fearless in so many aspects, yet have deep seated phobias in one or more areas of our lives. Phobias we choose to ignore, but they are there waiting — waiting to spring unpleasant surprises on us in our most vulnerable moments.
I wish courage was all encompassing. I really do, because it makes the business of living much easier.
But unfortunately or fortunately, depending on how you see it, courage or encouragement does not work that. And I’m learning that the hard way.
This reminds me of the prophet Elijah — the prophet who called down fire more than once in his day. The prophet who never tasted death. Went straight to heaven alive in heavenly escort of horses and chariots of fire.
I mean, that was some serious wonderment that amazes me every time I think about it.
Yet, the same man who stopped rain and called it down when it suited him. Who escaped arrest many times just by disappearing and appearing wherever and whenever he wanted;
Ran away….. ran away, when a witch threatened him!
Some say God had to call him home earlier than planned, because he allowed himself to be frightened by something less than what he had crushed in the past.
The explanation I have for that is: his courage failed him or he lost courage.
This leads me to believe that courage is food we need to injest daily, to be able to withstand unforseen threats that may distabilize us.
Courage is food we need to learn how to feed ourselves with i.e personal encouragement.
We can’t leave our encouragement in the hands of others. Because it’s not always, we can have someone around us to encourage us. Like Dwayne Johnson’s character in Hercules had.
When we depend on yesterday’s meal to sustain us, we would soon faint.
The same applies to courage.
Shalom๐ฟ๐๐ด
Musings of a Sanguine Christian Woman 